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QuarantineI watched the ground as silky, white smoke danced around and hugged my legs. It started slowly, light in color, almost like watered down milk - a translucent, innocent steam, cold and making the tiny hair follicles on my legs prickle. It became heavier, like liquid chalk and it soon hid my shoes completely. The air inside became heavier, and the clouds began to rise... the smell was indescribable. While it carried a deathly smell, it contained a sweet aroma - An addicting one at that, one you almost longed to swallow, but didn't only because you knew it would mean your end.Quarantine by ~hiivala
As soon as I was waist deep in the cloud, I laid down and inhaled as deeply as I could, first through the nostrils, and upon exhaling, my tongue slid from my mouth and I gulped it down like life-giving water on the third and final day of thirst.
The alarm sounded. The wailing siren protruded a red light so overtaking, it blinded me. I forced my eyes shut instinctively, but soon those muscles relaxed follow
Air-HungerIt doesn't matter how deep I breatheAir-Hunger by ~hiivala
Or the air I bring past my teeth
It fills my lungs, but it's never enough
Breathing fills me with disgust
This hunger remains a torturous curse
Each exclusive breath makes it worse
I fill my lungs until they're stretched
But nothing can relieve the pain in my breast
I indulge with hatred as I starve
This inescapable plague leaves me scarred
I want to give up, why should I try
If my endurance only leaves me dry
I supply my life with another breath
As I silently yearn for a quiet death
I plead for my lord to show me mercy
So I do not keep on indefinitely thirsty
But I turn away, in selfish desire
My heart ablaze in a violent fire
Without a thought, I grab my sock
I choke and convulse, and go into shock
And in the darkness, I slip away
Let air hunger itself starve this day
All Her Little ThingsStop hating her for the littlest things.All Her Little Things by *MikkiMarie
The things she can't prevent,
The things she can't save herself from..
Stop demanding her to do things,
Things she can't accomplish,
Things she can't imagine being done...
Stop lying to her,
Telling her you love her,
Want her, need her...
When all you've ever done is make her want to
Stop hating her for the littlest things.
The things she can't prevent,
The things she can't save herself from...
When those little things you've done
Take her down...
The little things won't matter anymore.
AnxietyI'm awkward and I'm stupidAnxiety by ~KannibalPirate
when I try talk to you
I stutter and I mumble
and tremble all way through
I apologize profusely
when I did nothing wrong
I can't even join in
when I can hear my favourite song
I'm negative and stubborn
I try protect my pride
but deep down I know very well
I'm insecure inside
I stay away from people
they give me quite a fright
this fear makes me quite lonely
and depressed all through the night
I tried to talk to someone
I tried so hard to meet
but they were cold and unaware
my standards weren't complete
I panic and I whimper
when I step out of line
when someone wants to help me
I turn and say "I'm fine"
Complete with such self hatred
my body takes the brink
my eyes are pink and teary eyed
I cannot even think
when meeting me, please understand
I try and try my best
give me a chance, don't pressure me
or put me to the test.